So I've given up on my D&D posts as it's difficult to really participate when you're trying to remember what's just happened lol. So no more of those posts, at least for now.
Actually quite a few things are just difficult right now. I've been trying to get to the gym at least once a week and I've managed it about 75% of the time since I started, so that's not so bad, but that's still counting the days like today where I was barely even able to finish the warm up step because today was a 'I got only one spoon day' (Explanation here) and I had to save it for grabbing a couple groceries for mum.
Then there's the 'what do you want for your birthday on Friday?' question which is hard because I've pretty much got everything I want but it feels so awkward just being like 'just give me money.'
It's difficult to want anything these days in the first place. I've given up on getting a job because I just don't have the energy to work even twice a week and I'm just plain unreliable. I've given up on moving out because the cheapest rental locally that isn't literally the garden shed with a kitchen counter added is a one-bed for $450 a week. And that's not even thinking about thinking about buying a house, the cheapest of which here in Lara - aka New Norlane - is $300,000. Good luck affording that. Saw a news report just today that there is now literally nowhere that is going for an affordable price for even a successful adult, let alone someone who is on a pension.
They've finally started slowwwly working on the micro-estate down the end of the road - 18 townhouses on a small field!! - but I've only ever seen a maximum of like three guys there doing f**k all. Meaning I'm even more paranoid about the bridge across the creek - it can barely cope with the traffic we get now, let alone deal with the added stress from this new place. And they're trying to sell them for $680,000 each. If each plot was the same size as the rest of the ones down the street - of which there is room for five - then maybe, yes, I can understand; but these "townhouses" are tiny terraces with no garden at all and room for one micro-car like a Ford Ka or similar. Not at all the vehicles that are driven by the kind of people who live in this country; everyone here has a ute or an SUV, usually both.
And that's not even mentioning the influx of enormous American utes recently; great massive 'trucks' that a tall 8-year-old can stand in front of and not be seen by the driver. Huge cars that never leave urban streets so are unnecessary and don't fit into a single parking space...
I still have my large W.I.P pile to work on too, yet that hasn't stopped me starting another one - at least with this new one I have the excuse that it's for a friend so there's a soft deadline on it. It's the first jumper I've ever made but it's going well so far - when I can get myself to work on it. Aside from that I still have: the socks I'm making for Caitlin and to use up the fluffy yarn; the dress I'm making which I need help with; the original fiction I'm handwriting the first draft of; the Storm Hawks fanfic I've done like two and a bit chapters of; technically I still have a few Lethandrel One-Eye stories to work on (but I haven't actually started on them so it's fine); the Fallout Australia fanwork to plotline out and sketch; the digital art projects (of which I have three); then there are all the recipes I want to try...
Of course none of that stops me from wanting to try new things I've seen like Barbie doll customising - watching a few videos of someone doing that on Facebook made me want to try to make Heron, my Storm Hawks fan-character (OC). But since I have so many W.I.P.s I have somewhat successfully put that idea aside for now. But to my eternal shame, executive dysfunction means all I do is sit and play Elder Scrolls Online or other video games. I have made some progress on my 'Pokedex in Minecraft' but that's easy enough since it's already on my computer and since I'm using it I might as well...
Speaking of, I now have to have two laptops - one for games and one for art and everything else. Meant I had to do a little finagling with the 'Pokedex in Minecraft' thing to swap the save from one computer to the other so I didn't have to start over (again lol). The main disappointment in the new laptop is that when it boots up, the keyboard lights up all rainbow but once it's finished it settles into a sort of sky-aqua colour. Surely it would be easy enough to code it so that each time it's turned on or woken up the keyboard lights up a different colour?! I mean, the colours are right there it can't be that hard. Alien is missing out on a simple marketing thing right there! If they can randomise colours on a touch-lamp then a gaming laptop should be too simple.
I don't know. Just a load of big feelings and nowhere to put them.
