Tuesday 5 May 2020

Just Uuuuuuugghhh.....

  If you were to ask me how things are for me right now, my response would be the above.

  This whole lockdown mess is fine, really; it's for the common good and nothing has really changed about my lifestyle anyway. Which makes this damned cough I have all the more confusing because where the hell did it come from!?

  I've had it two weeks now, which is longer than any other time I've been sick with a cold, but I've had literally no other symptoms at all, which just confuses things so much. I haven't been to pick up the prescription I need because I don't want to freak people out by coughing all the time. The worst part is sometimes I'm fine, but then I cough almost on autopilot which makes me need to cough more, and it all starts over again.

  At least it's got me drinking more water... silver lining there I guess.

  I never thought I'd miss going out to see friends; I've always been fine before with missing out on catch-ups because there's always next time; but now it's like, is there even going to be a next time? Everyone is talking over FB messenger, which is actually rather annoying since C set up a Discord for us all to use and almost everyone is on it, and it pings quieter on my phone than FB does. Also means we could voice chat, which we can't really do on the FB group message - not that we'd use it all that often (LOL) but it's there as an option.

  And it's much preferable to Zoom, which I can't bring myself to trust if only because other people have found that it discloses any private messages sent to people during 'meetings' in the 'minutes' afterwards. And then there's the apparent lawsuit against them for selling data - their FAQ might say they don't but they work closely with Facebook which doesn't even bother to pretend it doesn't anymore.

  AD has been - apparently - doing school online, but whenever I pass his room he is definitely not using classroom friendly language, which just persuades me he's playing HOTS with his friends or whatever they get up to these days.... Memeing stuff, probably...

My sleep's all out of whack again, after almost being back on 'proper' track for a few weeks - hence the lack of further Star Trek posts; I haven't been able to watch any as any time I have my headphones on is whenever there is apparently a job I have to do instantly or the sun will explode, and it's so hard to concentrate on something when you have to stop every few minutes to see what it is they're saying to you this time...

  At least I have my projects to work on though, right? LOL yeah right. Executive dysfunction plus procrastination multiplied by lack of motivation equals bugger all! I have done a little; I got a bit more knitting done, and I finished sewing together the top half of the dress I'm making, but since the start of this year I still have only added one panel to FO:A and I've done nothing toward Closing Time - though I did manage to respond to a prompt on r/WritingPrompts a little while ago.

  I've also started a new project, of a sort - a friend of ours set up a server on Minecraft for all us Treehousers, and it gave me the idea to make a world of 'mega builds' to share with them when the first 'build' is done; a huge multi-level maze with a monster farm in the middle. Which is what I've been doing overnight recently instead of Star Trek and knitting. Doesn't stop me from getting distracted by other things - I've got Minecraft open in the background as I type this, as I got the motivation for this while foraging in the kitchen.

  Time to go back to digging the giant hole I'll be building the 'Mega Monster Masher Maze' in...